dieeee

i don't mean to complain and whine
but i'm sick, really.

went down to the doc earlier
got $36 worth of medicine but no mc in sight.

and i really love psych (first paper, btw, in say, 10 hours?)
been filled with enthusiasm to psych my friends up to take it next sem
pun intended. ok lousy joke.
but i regret to say that i might flunk it.
even the doc said
"do selective reading. you're just cramming to ease your conscience."
wow. ever consider being a shrink as a sideline?
dad said it's ok to flop.
but not me. not in arts. not this sem.
where every paper i got back has a less-than-satisfactory grade.
not when everyone around me is aspiring for a great cap.

that sneakily, insidiously, subtly, but undoubtably, stresses me out.

i can't sleep.
and i really wish you were here with me.
dependency is addictive.
*coughs/frowns/generally just being a miserable sight*