alone

i miss my friends
wen/xian/ling
seems like ages since i last seen ling
though we attend the same weekly soci/elang lects
and i'm seeing her later so yay

wen!
i wonder how are ya in smu
eating your daily proper veggies intake and stuff?
doing ok?
still being the same old motherly auntie to all
i miss our talks
when i'd fret and whine and gush over my latest crush
complain abt the incessant irritants in my life
bitch abt other lousy friends
and wonder why they're still in our lives
while you'll nod knowingly
(ok, nth time jane's saying this...)
with a sympathetic gaze
and at the same time poking fun at me!
:)

xiano chimo
our future industrial/graphic/teeshirt designer
my shopping consultant/fashionista queen
stuck in her studio sketching drawing colouring
doing god knows what
SIGH
you never have time for me now!
harrumph.

guess i'm writing all this sappy mush
cos i've not really found my footing in nus yet
still feel lost in the sea of faces
littering the corridors and aisles of lts and classrooms
friends we see are all "hi... gotta run, bye!" acquaintances
they don't give a shit abt you
whether you sink or swim
how very superficial.

going for tutorials alone
is just abt the loneliest thing you can do
with no friends
you fidget outside restlessly
while you seek out any familiar face you can find
almost desperate i suppose
pathetic eh

is this what being independent is all abt
everyone seeking their own path
no matter how arduous it is
you've only got yourself

devoting quite a bit of time to bizcom
not sure if that's a wise move on my part
since not like i'm gonna run for presidency
all that politics is irksome
to the core

i've always believe
life is too short to waste on doing things you hate
seems like i've not been applying it much
and i hate myself for it
that passivity
go along with the flow with your peers
not good not good

there's unionball
which i am going for
deciding factor being redearth's friendly gorgeous makeup service
and the fact that this is MY year
you're only a freshie once.
(plus the union camp cd!)
and i'm damn guilty
having fun when i should be working hard
as students our first priority is to study
rmb that jane.