my (un)happy ending

watching spirited away now

it's all a bit nonsensical to me

a lot of bizarre happenings that diverts attention from the main plot

which is to save her whole family outta that magical place right?

but haku's a real nice bloke

i like him

but prefer him in dragon form

looks a bit like the 9-tailed fox in naruto

entering uni in three days

yet it still seems so distant and unreal

a thing of the future far away

yeah i'm apathetic to it now

i feel uni's an even bigger transition

as compared to sec sch or jc

i don't know

like a whole new different league by itself

maybe i've been spoonfed too much

by the tutors in tj

that sometimes i expect things to be just allocated to me

instead of hunting down info on nus website like some crazed hacker

and it feels like the whole world's at nus

all the cute guys you never knew existed

starts popping up at every nook and turn

as pleasing to the eye as it seems

it can get a little disconcerting

not to mention intimidating

you're suddenly thrown into the clubbing scene

where some friends whom you just met

smoke a fag and you had to pretend it's ok

secretly you're in extreme panic alert

cos you can't dance to the groovy beat

to save your pathetic ass

and it sucks terribly

to have a crush

on someone

who doesn't even turn up

MIA-ing half the time

and prob remembers you as some acquaintence

you don't exist in his world

hangs out with his guy dudes all the time

talking crap and saying stupid jokes

in short

a shitty guy

yeah that's the kind i'm always falling for

dear siberian

i hope i get over you soon. ASAP

you wasted enough of me.

i'm emotionally drained

and all washed out.

loads of unrequited love, xxx

drats

and i'm craving for a slice of that wonderful chocolate cake

yesh, you

coffeebean's chocolate of a thousand leaves

i want

smear all over my sticky fingers and lick 'em clean