just one dreamless night... please?

been having the same recurring nightmare.
for the past 3 nights or so
the scenarios might change,
but the theme stays constant.
that is, me stuck in the middle-of-the-exams frenzy.

two hours left before the start of a pe exam
and i've done nothing for the paper.
going for a math paper
staring at all the sums and having no freaking idea how to even start
no qualms abt failing
before i started to reason with myself
that it is absurd to do calculations when i'm in nusfass
and surge through the depths of unconsciousness.

it's particularly annoying
since the exams are long over
and i'm still suffering from post-exam fatigue.
not to mention it's a pain
to wake up rested yet momentarily disturbed,
followed by a disoriented sense of relief.

did i tell you how insane it is
now that the intense mugging period is over
everyone's now all whipped into a frenzy of another sort:
finding a job.
i didn't survive the exams just to be swept into another rush.
and i absolutely refuse to allow any of these anxious proletarian vibes
affect my hippie meditative in-a-state-of-nothingness soul.

i figured i'd wanna start work
once the toils of having fun/doing nothing/slacking sets in.
but for now, i'm more than happy to be a rather useless bum :)