unforgivable

i'd like to say that i truly enjoyed tonight's dinner with weili
soaking in the sights and smells of chompchomp
the past few days of being holed up at home reading
begging the words to transport me to worlds far far away.
i finished 3 novels in 3 days.

but what i was doing was merely avoiding,
delaying the inevitable.

you were at the back of my mind all the time
i'm so terribly sorry
that i've hurt you without knowing it all this while
that i didn't give you what you wanted
perhaps the most abominable sin of all was
that i didn't manage to make you feel loved.