oh man.

it's the ppl you're closest to
when you let them down
it hits you the hardest.
more so than anyone else can
they plant that deep seed of remorse in you
which will grow into full-fledged guilt
at that moment
you feel like a great sinner
in a world that's gone grey
and you'd give anything for the person not to be pissed anymore.
then only will the realisation struck
as to who really matters.

sorry, xian.
an irreplaceable quarter of the smartfoursome,
the funniest girl alive,
my (almost) do-everything-together girlpal,
and best friend.

i know it's tough keeping in touch
since everyone has their own deadlines to meet
friends to have lunch and gossip with
somehow we seem to be getting more and more insignificant
in each other's lives
to the point sometimes we ask ourselves
do we even matter anymore?

well you guys, yes you do
it's in uni when you seem to do everything alone
with those friendships made in lectures and tutorials
so fleeting and transcient
superficial even
that you cherish old friends more than before.

sometimes when i do get swept away
by torrents of expectations and waves of assignments
for i am only human
stop by and remind me of what's important.