fucked

selfish puking-my-brains-out-so-i-have-a-right-to-stupidity me thinks indonesia should pay for ALL our haze-related medical expenses.

what the hell. been having coughing spasms all this past week where whenever i get one, i stop all functionalities of a human being and start going into a wheezing fit. it gets so bad saliva starts to choke me, my face is totally crimson and i feel like barfing my last meal out.

wah seh it's embarrassing to be sick man. i hate it when the fits happen on the bus, mrt, even worse, in lectures/tutorials/places where you ought to keep silent. then i'd implode like a cackling witch. really, i sound so bad i am sure people ard me were gonna come over and help me out. it goes on for more than 30 secs (i cough more than 10 times at one go). cack-cack-cack-caCK. -breathes- CACK CACK CACK. cack cack. -gasping- cack-cack-cack-caCK. cack cack. CACK! -should stop soon but lungs don't agree- CACK CACK CACK CACK.

my abdominal muscles are getting such a workout. i'm beat from all that exertion, my shoulders, my burning throat, my voice. not to mention mum and dad who have to bear with my terrible late night chokers. damn indonesia i hate you. sometimes i get quite faint-headed after a big cough.

i'm worried. i just puked some dinner out and i'm sweaty and grimey from bending over the toilet bowl. i wish someone could just strip me down and bathe me. i might even pay. i want to be cleaned, tucked into bed and have a soundless, phlegm-free sleep. but no i still have a huge hooked article on vivocity gv due tmr to worry abt. pls let the $32 of coughsyrup-licking and pill-popping work. would you believe, my super chemical-tasting cough syrup had the printed label "poison/racun/duyao". -shudders- 'nuff.

i need sky. i want him. -cries-