is it

this is a moody night for incoherent thoughts
i'm really glad to have the midterm break
to take stock of things and just... breathe
with the mad rush of school
each weekend just flying by
start of a new monday over and over again
sick of trying to sound think and act intellectual
i miss the simple things in life

god i really feel like buying something now
anything
haha

i think i could be losing a good friend
maybe i'm already mourning for this loss
things are different now
i don't have the courage to ask
or perhaps anticipating the standard response
the uncertainty is redundant

in the midst of it all
the listening ears are damn precious
friends are indeed love.
and i mean you wen, joyce, alex and gina!
yes the boyfriend too
for making time fly when i'm with you
for the laughter, fierce bear hugs and secrets shared.

projects

there is almost no chance for independent assignments this semester as ALL 5 OF MY MODULES are project-based.

save for one module, there is always something that pisses/irks me off in each group. one girl who's damn tao and inconsiderate. late submission for compiling of parts. uncertainty. indifference.

i'm getting freaking pissed because a large part of my grades depend on them and the amount of effort they choose to put in. i don't wanna seem like a nitpicker or a grouch or bossy because i suck at being a leader but i can't always laugh it off. i wish i'm a guy - they can be firm and get away with it at the same time.

spreeee... not

last week, i went chinatown with goof and his family.

we were exploring the second floor of people park's centre lined with shops featuring suitably auntie-ish apparel, fabrics and household items. it's a place xian and i used to frequent for elastic bands, ribbons and chunky gold clasps to make our own belts (which of course i never did wear mine).

there i was, mindlessly strolling along when i chanced upon a display of a white dress. once featured on myspringfling, it was an item which i was feverishly enamoured with and had fretted upon buying it or not for almost one week (they had backorders). it was also said to be "exclusive", made in japan and cost $47 with postage. luckily for me, i chose not to get it in the end.

i believe i had shuddered at the sight of it. being. displayed. in. an. 'auntie'. shop.

i'm getting weaned off online shopping now - no doubt this incident has played a huge part in it.

meow

the kittens have gone missing for about a week now. =(((

a tiny part of me worries if they have been knocked down by mean cars or trucks or lorries, big bodies of metal that can't quite see or be bothered with small helpless creatures.

i hope i'm wrong. i'm hoping to bump into that kind uncle who feeds them and ask him about their whereabouts. goof says they are probably fine, prowling about furiously humping the opposite sex.

i like to think they have been adopted by a nice caring family nearby.

sigh i miss them terribly.

-secret- II

hopelessly obsessed with -secret- ost.

for the first time, i'm actually loving almost every song/ballad from a movie.

i love, love, love track 12 - qing tian wa wa (teru teru bozu/sunny doll). to think jay could come up with such an upbeat, cheery and fun song (along with the lyrics yo!) is just too cute.

我讨厌下雨天 亲爱的你快出现
不然我 就告诉妈咪你偷牵我的手
我喜欢夏天 你穿背心的感觉
每天 都想念 都很甜