we deserve a break

wow a flood of tags
nice to know friends divert their attention to me
only after their exams are over
haha kidding.

top priorities:
(apart from those already mentioned)

+ get ears pierced *gulps
+ pay visit to crescent and stmargspr
+ go blind catching truckloads of movies
+ ktv!
+ buffet-ings
+ crystaljade xiaolongbaos & lamian

gonna just indulge in fun and relax with goof these few days
before tackling the irksome academic issues
like choosing next sem's modules
consulting prof straughan over my major
selling my old texts

ps. thanks babes for commiserating
really comforted to know i'm not the only one
struggling with all these concerns.

troubled

yay my exams are over
so why am i overwhelmed with a sense of emptiness?
like there's nothing to do or look forward to
sigh actually i think i know the answer
i didn't do my last paper all that well
and it sucks
cos i know that sucky you've-underperformed feeling
will stalk me for a couple days
before i finally get so pissed and give up "aiyah heck lah".
until the results are released.
right now i just feel awful.
yesh i'm afraid my cap will nosedive
and i don't think i can accept that reality
i won't attempt suicide lah
just plenty of whining and self-pity which i hate
how how how
not sure if i should major in lit
is it too late to turn back now?
:(

humph.

can i say something
i really (x10) wanna catch aeonflux and prime
one promises to be eye-candelicious and the other, hilarious :)
and the orchard festive lights too (but some are hideous)
it's been more than a week now
and i really (x100) miss my darling goof so bad =(
there's nothing i want more than to see him
and to give him many big squishy hugs =)
and to poke him silly =P
damn the exams
ok it's just 2 more days til mine ends and 3 to his.
come on... you can do this.

my "stream of consciousness"

browsing marks&spencers today
got me into such a christmas mood
must be all the ornately wrapped yummilicious chocs
festive fruit cakes christmas puddings
red gold and green ribbon trimmings
and i'm tingling with warm fuzzy vibes already
and i realised by the time 29 nov comes
it's barely a month to christmas!
ahhh exciting exciting
i want to get waxed and a nice meal at pepperlunch
i'm addicted to that place, i tell ya
ikea - meatballs and buying pretty, frivolous nothings
and see if i get inspired enough to make little xmas prezzies ;)
i most probably would, at least for a select few lah
movie marathons soccer matches
spend idyllic days absorbed in good books
snuggling in bed on a rainy day with you
strolling along esplanade and gaze at the twinkling sealights
blading at ecp and clementi
bake cookies (ambitiously, maybe a cake too!?) and make agaragar
oh yeah last night
a damn cockroach was on my laptop
and had the guts to crawl onto... MY PRECIOUS BED!
of course i screamed like crazy, a mere 50 cm from my face.
that reminds me, i need to clean my room
it's a pigsty anyway i guess that's why you have the (rip) roach
nasty vermin.
can i possiby persuade goof to be my housemaid for a day
i'm allergic to dust and housework
white apron with matching gloves provided... haha.
bedok blk 85 and sliced fish beehoon
max brenner carlsjr finish a jigsaw
head to sentosa and try out the luge!
attempt the treetop walk at macritchie
oooh can't wait for the hols. seriously.
think you're romantic? wait til you check this out.

right. back to mugging.

my bro's off to prom
in his new spiffy dyed brown hair
topshop albeit ahbengish shirt
(no retro floral shirts available in his size. damn)
baggy jeans and brown sneakers
yours truly was with him every step of the makeover
i must say he looked not bad
all that's lacking is a cool diamante earstud
but my dad would prob have a cardiac arrest.
i'd love to attach a pic to show him off
unfortunately my camera is in alex's custody right now *ahem!

my mum's calling all her relatives
spreading news on the grapevine
abt how my niece got 268 for psle
so it's either raffles girls or nanyang
ooh how distressing.
sheesh. *rolls eyes
i mean give us a break
it's one thing to congratulate
but another to scoff.
i hope i'd never be one of those kiasu competitive mums.

29 nov is the day the world rights itself again
when i have you all to myself :)

-hugs-

we're ok now
to all the precious listening ears
thanks loads and i love you guys
really appreciate it babes =)

liar

i'm angry because you pacify me like a kid and i hate it
i'm angry because you knew i was pissed yet you didn't hold me back and ask
i'm angry because you knew i was gonna cry and did nothing
i'm angry because i was alone on the train, doing my darnest not to let tears fall
i'm angry because you forget half the things i said
i'm angry because i know you would leave me to cool off rather than pester
i'm angry because you laugh important issues off like they don't matter
i'm angry because you apologise like you don't mean it
i'm angry because you act like i don't matter to you sometimes
i'm angry because you don't do impulsive romantic stuff to surprise me
i'm angry this has to fucking happen in the midst of exams
i'm angry because you don't know why the hell i'm so pissed
i'm angry because you matter so much to me.

tiffany voile

buy me this, and i'm yours for life. :)

tsktsk,
such is my deplorable morality standards these days huh. =P

ok my lovelies, mug hard!

nanny mcphee!

spark in my life

thank you
i had forgotten to cherish.
it's amazing how a mere half hour with you
walking talking laughing
my hand nestled warm in yours
and i feel like the happiest girl on earth =)))

you can make me happier

YAY YAY YAY
i've finished ALL my assignments
and the last essay, which i was dreading
i did it without goof's/anyone's company :)
though being alone in the library sucks
feeling ultra bored at times
and there's nobody to talk to

phyllis quek is really gorgeous
saw her at shaw
dressed to the nines with a taitai bag
giggling like a schoolgirl with her girlfriend
real cute
and i couldn't help but stare. lol

i wanna swim/rollerblade
catch a movie with you (though i'm still pissed)
get a facial and massage
i need a wax
french pedi/manicure would be nice
just buy something.

most of all, i need sleep.

i'm angry with you for no reason
i just wanna be.
i'm being petulant i know
so will you still be nice

anxiety attack

i've been such an emotional wreck today
tormented with guilt abt not finishing the essay
despite staying up most of last night at ling's scribbling away
while i was so jealous that she slept like a baby :)
yep kinda kept a vigil over her while hammering my essay
one funny moment when she suddenly uttered a "huh!"
which startled the crap out of me. lol
ok i digressed.
so my spirits and morale were really low
not to mention incredibly shagged
then later upon hearing goof's voice over the phone
and realising my hopes of surprising him was dashed
since he was in sch mugging
while i'm over at his place
i got all teary cos i miss him so much.
at the void deck sumore.
real glam huh.
essays can turn me into such a crackpot.

i hate going on msn these days
every moniker is abt mugging mugging
how many more days to go
how many chapters to read through
i say enough already
if all this mugging doesn't drive you nuts
hurray good for you
but the least you could do is stop stressing others.

i miss you miss you miss you
i need you to hold me hug me kiss me
and tell me everything's gonna be over soon.
these damned things.

i'm meant to cram, you see

sooo annoying
everyone has started on their revision
while i'm still trying my darnest
to finish 2 essays
bahhh.
damn unfair ain't.

and the thing is
i thought i had plenty of time
but no
those ppl who are already mugging
exclaimed "of course lah, less than 2 weeks to exams leh!"
succeeded in making me kan cheong
and the worse thing is
i can't do anything abt it.
not now anyway.
humph.

often

argh.
feeling restless again.
all my notes and reference books are sprawled
carelessly over the entire room for easy reach
but i can't fix my eyes on a text for more than 5 mins
then they would start straying
to the laptop internet,
the blaring tv noises outside in the living room
the hp for any new msgs.

heck. i should just go to bed and continue tmr, no?
yesh.

roach disappearus!

i've developed a hypersensitivity for cockroaches.

ever since on friday when
the granddaddy of all roaches flew out from the back of my cupboard
it spans all of 12-freaking-cm (!!!)
had me yelling all sorts of expletives at it
running hysterically to my neighbour's for reinforcements
since it caught me oh-so-vulnerably-helplessly-home-alone
we held it captive with a mini fishing net
and would you believe it
my neighbour refuse to annihilate it
HOW CAN!
she's either mother teresa's incarnate or simply loony.
given its monstrosity
a few hard whacks would only render unconsciousness
and roaches are notorious for their miraculous regeneration powers.
still gives me the shudders.
later my dad had the cheek to agree that we shouldn't kill it
"perhaps it's your grandma's spirit visiting."
"................."
oops, i just crushed an ant
oh maybe i have just killed 3rd grand uncle too.
sheesh.
really, nonsense leh.

then two days later
i was home alone (again),
therefore being easy prey for roach scares,
and just my luck
i glanced upon one (this time, average sized) sneakily creeping on my tv set!
one long string of curses followed
and i was, really freaking pissed.
luckily mum aka the champion roach exterminator
(she's better than baygon, serious)
returned home in the nick of time.

then there's a series baby roach episodes
but those i can handle
just that they scurry away real fast
which, in itself, is just as damn annoying.

now i just freeze at anything black and seedy-looking
stunned into momentary paralysis
and occasionally let out a bloodcurdling scream
yep that's how traumatised i am
goof's left bewildered by my paranoia
after freaking out on him twice in a day
and it makes my skin crawl just to think (sorry pun)
i might just touch something a roach had once lingered upon
sharing living quarters
whilst they lurk in some dark corner smirking gleefully.

if the situation worsens,
i would have no qualms calling in exterminators.
my husband has to be firm on pest control
not like dad
fancy being such a softie over bugs.

no fair
engine has ended their lectures already
and no doubt, beginning to fill up study areas of yih and libraries once more